I published this post first in November 2015 and re-post it on that old date.
I have not taken part in SoCS in a long time. Thinking about my current situation though this week’s prompt just fitted what I wanted to write about anyway.
To worry or not to worry
That is no question for someone suffering from PTSD. Depression and anxiety are a part of the symptoms and against common believe we can’t just leave our problems at home or get over them. The wrecked up wirings and imbalances in our brains do not allow us to.
Yes, of course, we learn to cope and often work and be as we would be without our problems but then a trigger comes that we have not expected or that is stronger than our coping mechanism and we find ourselves in trouble.
It must seem to outsiders like having to deal with two different people: a normal, happy creature going about their business and then suddenly a raging maniac or sad, immobile mouse. And you never know when the person will change.
That’s probably how it feels for us too. At least I feel like that. I’m losing my way now.
Can’t remember my train of thought.
I am like this for days. I try to get the keys out of the fridge, go upstairs to do one thing and start three others and can’t even sit and read and read as much as I want to….
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You described what it's like perfectly. I really get upset when people tell me to just be happy or that I have so many things to be grateful for. It almost makes it worse because then I start feeling guilty for being depressed, even though I don't have any control over it. The hardest part is not knowing when and how it will be triggered. Just know that you are not alone. I wish I could reach through virtual space and give you a huge hug, even knowing it won't take it all away, though in a perfect world it absolutely would.Take care, Lady! ❤
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Thanks Helen I got the hug anyway 🙂
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Thanks Helen I got the hug anyway 🙂
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I like it when a prompt fits something I wanted to say anyway.:-)Same with pain. Well, the part where you say that anyone who says to just get on with life and be thankful anyway makes you feel even more depressed that you can't quite master their suggestion.Thanks for explaining PDSD for those of us who might wish to understand it a little bit better.
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Hi Kerry, nice to meet you and thanks for stopping by. Well, I think the problem is that you cannot see from the outside when someone suffers from a mental health condition. You see the person functioning like normal but you never ever see their fight inside and how much energy it costs to just do normal things. You only see the problem from the outside when things go wrong and out of hand. That makes it so difficult for those who do not live with a mental health condition to understand. You are very welcome. I will write more about it in the future. I can't escape it anyway so I better make something positive out of it :-). Again thanks for stopping by!
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Me, too! I feel exactly the same as you Bee! ❤
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It’s awful but we are not alone 😍🙋♀️🐝
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