I need some Stream of Consciousness Saturday therapy my dear readers. So if you are here to have fun you better look for another #SoCS post. I don’t want to be mean but I need to figure out what Brexit really means.

Does my worrying about it get on your nerves? Well, sorry for that but for me Brexit means I am losing a lot of power over my life.

A friend of mine said to me:” Well you just have to sign a couple of forms and then its fine”. Uhm really? I also have to pay a couple of fees dear. And as far as I can see no one knows how our status will be until next March. In fact, if the news are to be believed it might take even a little longer. And what if there is no deal? Will I be an illegal immigrant? Will they chuck me out?

We can’t plan anything because we do not know what Brexit means besides Brexit of course. And the British expatriates in Europe have the same problem.

I have to admit I would not have come here if I’d known Britain would leave the EU. I was choosing between Switzerland and the UK and decided for the UK exactly because it was in the EU.

And I am rather astonished what the Brexiteers think why people come to their country.

No 1: the NHS

That was a reason for me NOT to come. NHS has and always had a rather bad reputation in Germany. Not sure how it is now but when I came here the German health system was expensive but ok. We quite often heard horror stories of people not getting the operation they needed or got operations they didn’t need. Of course, I can’t speak for immigrants from other European countries but for me, the NHS meant a reason NOT to come. I have to admit though I was pleasantly surprised about it when I was here.

No 2: Getting benefits for free

No offence dear Brexiteers but I left Germany precisely not having to go for benefits. First of all, you don’t get any when you just arrive in this country unless you are a refugee and those are usually not from Europe. Secondly, I wanted a job and not having to have three like I had to in Germany to make a living.

I have never received any benefits here and currently would only be able to get help for about 6 months due to my 11 years of working here. Definitely not worth to leave the country of my birth even though you can hardly get any benefits there anymore either.

No 3: Stealing jobs from the British

Yes, I came here for a job but guess what? Britain advertised in Germany for people to come over and work for them because Britain could not get the staff they needed. And no one wanted the job I did when I came here because cutting up fish is a smelly business.

And I would very much like to know where all those jobless Brexiteers were in summer when there were tons of jobs in the fields to harvest fruit and veg? Not so keen on working now, are you? I know this sounds mean but I am so angry about all those lies that have been told and still are told about immigrants. And then they moan they can’t get a job but when there are jobs they don’t take them. Never mind.

The most irritating thing I find in the whole situation is that most think I am British. I am married to a Brit so I automatically became British is their thinking. Well, that was the case before I came to the country. It was changed in 2007 or 2008.

And they also said: But you work and have a job you don’t have to worry! Not sure what that had to do with the price of bread because to have a job doesn’t make one British. Also, immigrants are despised because they have the jobs! So what? Shall we have a job or not?

All this makes me so angry. Can you understand that? Can you understand that the uncertainty of what my status and my life will be drives me crazy? It is a f…… big deal for me and my family. Because it means that my husband might have to choose between staying close to his children or staying with his wife if the worst comes to the worst. And please do not tell me it won’t happen. That’s what they said about Brexit and a president Trump too!!!!

I have a problem with the fact that people take serious decisions based on lies and on top do not once think about the fact that it is humans behind those decisions. That these decisions destroy lives….

This rage of mine pops up every now and then and it means I need to get it out of my system. So until March, I am going to write about it as often as I can and no matter what.

This and future Brexit rants are courtesy of Linda G. Hill, ruler of the Stream of Consciousness Saturday country of free speech and free thinkers. Thanks!

Find Linda’s prompt and many more brilliant #SoCS posts here.

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1. Your post must be stream of consciousness writing, meaning no editing (typos can be fixed), and minimal planning on what you’re going to write.

2. Your post can be as long or as short as you want it to be. One sentence – one thousand words. Fact, fiction, poetry – it doesn’t matter. Just let the words carry you along until you’re ready to stop.

3. I will post the prompt here on my blog every Friday, along with a reminder for you to join in. The prompt will be one random thing, but it will not be a subject. For instance, I will not say “Write about dogs”; the prompt will be more like, “Make your first sentence a question,” “Begin with the word ‘The,’” or will simply be a single word to get you started.

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