I never realised in what a bad place I was in the last couple of years until recently. Hopefully, I managed to get out of there now…
How is your writing going? Are you inspired or in a rather dark place?
After a spell of activity and writing like mad, I am going back into the dark places. Winter is always a hard time for me as it seems to be more difficult to keep my thoughts and feelings on a positive path.
St. John’s Worth has always helped me and so does it now, but I do not want to take it longer than six months which is probably too long anyway. I start taking it in October one pill every day but now I try to wean myself off it. Meaning I take one every two days.
It has an effect on my mood, of course. I am back on the coffee and a little alcohol which does not help. My usual downing thoughts are arriving: “I do not want to be in that dark place.”
It’s no point though to pity myself. I know I suffer from depression and it just needs managing which I can after 20 odd years of living with it. No matter the healing I have gone through. It’s just part of my life.
I also think it’s part of my creativity. There are so many who have and still suffer from it. Some are highly successful no matter what. Some aren’t, and some have not survived it.
That’s a matter of fact if I like it or not. I just go through my cycles and keep on writing. Because there is one thing I have learned in those 20 odd years: If you give up doing what you love you have already lost. No matter how hard.
How about you? Do you have cycles of writing and not-writing?
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I’m sorry to hear that you’re feeling down. I have cycles too. Sometimes I write more when down though ~ I can blast out a lot of poetry in a black mood. Other times I write nothing. There have been times I’ve been too happy and busy to write much! I hope things improve for you soonest. ❤️
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Thanks so much for your kind words This is a re-post from 2015. I am currently sort of ok. No major breakdown. The year off work has helped to heal a lot. I still feel the waves though and am currently contemplating where to go from here which can be quite scary. 🙋♀️🐝
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